Friday, February 26, 2010
my heart is beating fast. i duno wat to do. should i or should i not? for ppl or for myself.which one goes first? will i be able to lift my head after that? am i being bad to myself? my soft spots r getting me in trouble. but i CANT confide to anyone.not even yanfeng or victor (they r the ppl i trust most.) how to noe if someone is being true ornot? such a big thing wont get forgotten so easily ba... it will stay etched in the mind right. 2 roads to choose, both oso will regret. dun choose? haha i wish. im going mental.if i have any mental probs it will b split personality or nervous breakdown. its easier said than done. im jus 12, i havent even reach 13 y mus something likethat happen? cos i stupid.when i have chance i nvr think properly. i got punished with 3 i injured fingers on my right hand n i still continue. ... stubborn bitch, hate myself. im so stupid. someone help me. my kor cant help me, he powerless lor in that sch -.- i nid to push the victor situation, frenship issues, seniors,judo n studies to one side n THINK properly. if any of this leak out, jus nid one person to noe n im dead. ppl will boo me down guys think im bitch gals think im bitch all throw food at me tchers get disappointed inform my parents n not only will i die, U will kena the police. should i trust u? u helped me wad now if i didnt do it wont i look bad? wont i b bad?. its all my mom's frens fault. she shouldnt have put BPS as my 2nd choice... i should b in bartley. i duno wat to do... im so sick n tired of it... cry all u wan cos ppl can only see the top of the iceberg. they cant c was is submerged below. my devil n my angel fighting... one say'girlll dun so stupid.' other say' eh he help u leh, jus do it lahh.' arghhhhhh...im so confused stop fighting both of u. ... my head is now in such a mess. to lx: now scared liao lor, still dare come disturb me? wats worst? i cant ask for an opinion.>.< nid help but cant ask for it.... Labels: dun ask me wats the prob cos none of u will expect it if i tell u |
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