i 'walked' around in the world of blogging.took many peeks.i think my 2nd 2009 sickness is coming back. im gonna like 'control' myself now.watever reason its for. u shld have seen my 2008 - 2009 blog. its ... dump, stupid. but damn emo.and stupid. ok sry this is the 2nd time i said it was stupid. anw, its too bad that blog has viewing probs. u noe i have this like fear. damn.stop saying the word 'like' . ok ok.restart. im starting to have this fear...ok there are more than one. some of them ppl noe some dun. ... o.o my reaction. i got speechless. just tell me my mistakes,my attitude probs n watever u ppl dislike bout me so i can change. getting paranoid. starting from tmr if i keep asking questtions like 'does anyone hate me?' or 'do u noe of anyone that hates me? or even 'do u hate me?' then that 2nd 2009 mental prob of mine is definitely coming back. u ppl will get alittle irritated by it cos i was an irritating person in 2009. not sure if i still am. but u just have to tell me if i am ok. i have one big sorry to say to genevieve. ... and some sec 2s, 3s, 4s or even 5s if there are, that dislikes or hate me. i noe...ok i list out arh?

hated for:

1. act cute

2. act mature

3.act pro

4. cant keep my comments to myself

but i noe most of them is abt the act cute part. to emil, u see? i alrdy tell u . u have bad taste for liking me. go find someone better. i just an extra in this sch ok? not hinting anything. not attention seeking. and MOSTLY not trying to gain any sympathy.i became a bitch once i entered this school.damn.someone, slap me. i noe a few ppl feel like doing that...k.long pause. to b honest,i dun really like myself. when i was in primay sch i despised myself. i dun even wan to look in the mirror. the only times i looked in a mirror was when i : go to the toilet. comb my used-to-be short hair (even then i only look at my hair not at my face). ok. i will change all of the bad stuff bout me starting from tmr.shall 'control' myself...

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