if i can for one day dun feel sad for even awhile the earth will stop moving for awhile. singapore will start snowing

my earpiece spoillllll T.T . i nid to get a new oneee. tdy...uhhh. k i think up of a new nickname ^^ . tdy i took the flight of stairs tht is behind the water cooler thr. forgot tht ZEUS was sitting thr. till i reach the last step then it suddenly struck me. like ' SHIT! '. then xx n lx all walk in front liao. then i freeze at thr. i shouted ' XIU XIA >< !!! ' then i use my eyes to like signal her is zeus still thr. she no nid ans anything. she orh only i noe liao. then im like shit. i want to count 1...2...3 then run. i count until 3 then nvm...forget it. jus walk like normal.

sometimes...i ponder...its very difficult for someone to b as happy as me if such a thing happen to them. i think thts on the outside. inside thr are many things going on in me. my emotions all camoufladge by tht one smile i adopt. i can b angry. i can b sad. i can b jealous. i can me envious. i can b heartbroken but my face will look the same. the smile will always stay. u ppl dunno wat is going on in me. u dunt noe how i feel at times. only i noe it myself cos i have hidden them all. i noe its not gd for my mental health to keep everything to myself. but i think its better for other ppl. sometimes i do try to tok to ppl. tht person whom is great in listening will b victor. thank u very much. and rmb to b nice to genevieve. when ppl dun understand this part of me they may get angry sometimes. when im supposed to b sad tht smile will still appear. then ppl will b like ' walao. shes not sad at all lor. walao so cold blooded @#$%&*@#$&*@$# ' and all that. its ok if ppl are to think like that of me. cant blame them for not noeing me enough. in fact sometimes it could b tht i didnt tell them bout me resulting in them not noeing that im like that, which ever, its ok. if it really matters then. blame me for not letting u to understand more bout me. blogs are another great listener. u can express urself here and it will not go away. whenever u nid it. jus type blogger.com, it will b thr for u. some ppl has a short life. some ppl have a longer one. whichever it is. dun wait till the person is gone then u start regretting all the shit u had done. thrs no point crying over spilt milk. no matter how much tears u shedd for it, it wont come back. and time is not reversible nor is it stoppable. it will keep going and going, it wont wait for u. so................................................................................................................................................................

STOP WASTING TIME. tell the ppl u love tht u love them.

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