y is thr selfish-ness in everybody? idk. ytd planing to ton but decided that i may b too tired for tdy so slept at 1 am instead. then my fuking cough wake me up at 3 am. cough until like im gonna die. then finally slept at 4 am i think. then woke up at 5.50. _l_ . slept for that pathetic 2 hrs only. went too sch and first time i tired until cannot tah han. reach le, slept in the canteen till lights off. went up to hall then lie against this pillar beside me. slept again. go to 1 lesson, maths class, slept again. tcher woke me up 5 times but on the 5th time he stop waking me up and i had quite a gd rest. but this whole day dunno y. see all this ppl around feel a little bek chek. mood abit not gd ah. i see everyone oso angry. but nvm. atleast see yanfeng no anger. i mean really. like see until my whole class ppl i feel damn damn damn bek chek. oh. ear piece still with kimberly. lucky tdy 9.15am onwards no lesson. health-screening all the way. i see the wall beside the health screening black black de. vent abit anger. kick kick kick ( anw it doesnt make a diff to the color right? ) the dunno y daphne oso go kick the wall bio tcher saw then start her nagging -.- then i pretend no hear then she call my name. shit. turn to face her and when she open her mouth i sayyy all the crap she wanna say ' yes tcher i noe its vandalism. its illegal. this is sch property. u can sue me watever. ' tcher diam. then say ' if u noe then y do u wan to do this? ' i paused then she say ' for fun ah? ' i nodd and say ' yeah ' nth say then took down me n daphne name. -.- was wondering y daphne suddenly so quiet.


i wanna ask again. y is thr selfish-ness in everyone? y mus because u dun-like-not-u-dun-wan-then i mus ' k. fine. u dun like then ok lah. stop. ' y ? isit cos im small-sized or because i let u walk all over me too much that when u jus say ' is not i dun wan is i dun like ' then u noe i will stop???? fuck it k. u dun like it thats ur prob i dun care if its ur property or watever crap. love ur family? then fuck off to hell with them. cos i dun care if u love them cos i hate them. guess u dunno wat it feels like to have a dead mom and a guai lan father that wants u to tok to them properly but fail to do the same. its damn irritating k, this time i cant communicate with my father is cause he doesnt wan to tok properly to me. giving me that stupid tone that always come with a fight and MUST end with him saying i think im reasonable but im not when i didnt even fucking say a word to him when he say that crap. he wat? got smoke think i dunno. i oso suspect he got gf le. say wat go malaysia. go to hell with ur bitch and ur stupid kent or mild seven cigs cos eventhough i hate winston it generally smell better than U. msg keep ask me how spell this how to spell that when i say ' i help u msg so it will b faster. ' u say u dun wan. how suspicious can that get huh? u think im born ytd? -.- i may have failed 3 main subs atleast i tried my best. but u were not fucking thr. u r out n abt with ur fone n ur smelly cig. lie oso dunno how to think first. dumb. but tell u wat. if u gonna bring that bitch home n tell us wat a great mom she will b to us then sry. i rather be parentless than with u n ur bitch.

in the newspaper say i cry like shit? no. im not gonna break down. and noe wat? i didnt. cant trust news. they r craps.