holidays very boring sia....call me? msg me? anything fun to do? call me. CALL ME!!! i bored until i will go siao i tell u. let me tell u so far wat i did tdy: woke up at 9.45am. look at fone. no msg. no missed call -.-. lie thr awhile then go brush teeth. went downstairs to drink the mushroom soup my aunt cooked. then aft tht went back upstairs. watch t.v till i fell asleep again till 3.15pm (y m i so tired?) then i go eat abit of lays, original. then i ask my aunt to unlock the com to let me play one downloaded game ' escape roseclift island ' play for very very very long cos i suddenly had a plan. cos she going out mah. i play tht game till she went out. then i go eat dinner. sit awhile. then i came up finally go chance to play fb all this. ornot she say if she caught me play fb i die. she close the com n forever dun let me play. i dunno y the hell they dun let me play ._.

competition: 1st match with Elizabeth lam from NYGH. it sucked k. she play until very low. i dunno how to play till so low. i tried low arm but i made a big mistake. i lifted my hand till quite high before i do so very obvious to her. plus the mat was very slippery. she slipped abit. i oso.

2nd match with catherine cai from NYGH (again). lucky she nvr come. walk over

3rd match with...i only noe her first name. yanjie. she freaking newbie ah. her dunno sis or coach at first nid to teach her how to walk in to the match. she do all the one arm shoulder throw got same mistake as me. hand lift too high. i tried to do tanni but...cannot. dunno y. she do the osoto gari, i got fall...fall front. lucky. then she do the osoto gari i oso tried to counter. but ... i think got i nvr turn put my feet to the back thts y cannot. then in the end i oso dunno how she win. honestly!!! i go back tht time alot ppl say she suppose to get shido but refree nvr give. wtf? if she get shido i will win i think.

total at tht day...at tht time. i cried 3 times. first time i try to keep. 2nd time i lie on dewi lap keep grumble. my mood seriously not gd. then she nid fight liao, i sit up then i start crying...not very jia lat lah...ok only. then nxt is the girls finish le then i go back i lie down on the floor then keep grumble. grumble grumble then cried abit. then i cannot tahan liao. i dun wan to keep cry. then go sleep. later i woke up...still feel abit down. then the whole thing finish le can go le. slightly better. then my mood later ok le cos jonas keep ka chiao me. u noe im the sort of person tht is very easy to laugh right??? ok lah if i freaking freaking freaking feeling damn damn damn down then i will maybe not tht easy to laugh. then everybody go bedok de KFC to eat. by the time i finish the food i alrdy ok le. aft tht my sis wan me sit mrt to simei thr then ask my uncle to fetch me. tht day my aunt return from hk. she bought skinny jeans for me n new backpack. yay.... now i nid go find or even buy shirt tht fits mi new skinnys. ...wait i realised something. all the 3 times i cried important person no.1 nvr care at all. wahh so long le then i realise such a thing o.o tsk...so ...saddening...important person no. 1 nvr care me le... i really so lousy?

Labels: even if u dun care i will always b thr whenever u nid someone

dear somebody～,
u sort of changed n...its hurting me. its just u dun noe it. my feelings , i hide them all the time so its not realky ur fault for not noeing. im like 'a dark cloud tht is blocked by multiple fake clouds n my ever deceiving sun ( or smile ) ' its like the old u is gone...just like ur hair. whr r u? wat i see tdy...nowadays...is not really u. its also like ur getting closer to another person*. n i dun hate tht person, he can say is quite a gd fren to me among the sec 1s. i dun hate u too. i nvr hate u. im just ... i dunno. im confused with my feelings i dunno if im hurt, angry, sad, happy, bored or moodless. i not say u cannot get close to other ppl. yes u can ofcos. but at the same time, u get closer to other ppl but u forget bout me aft tht. ya, maybe its cos im not tht important to u but, u have no idea how important u r to me. its like u now dun care me alrdy...another way to say it is tht u dun care me as much as last time alrdy. am i dislikable? am i boring? ya, maybe. my LIFE is boring. another thing, do i fit in? u noe aft tdy i keep thinkng of this? i keep think ' maybe im too tame to fit in with u? so i like very extra liketht with u all. a guai kia trying to fit in? i was deep in thoughts when u just walk away liketht aft cca. to u this thing might b ' like tht ONLYY' but its not to me. i miss las time jan to feb the period. but i wan to erase march the period. during jan to feb. everything was perfect. i was fine with u. i was fine with...i still cant think of a nckname!!! k lah its zeus. but march the period was terrible, stress pile up one another. wont mention wat tht stress was. i dun wan to remind myself of the terrible time when i lost important person no. 2. i wan to ask. do u rmb the happy times we had anot? do u rmb us waiting for each other? thr r many more stuff i wan to ask if u rmb but i dun wan to say. i wan to ask. am i so easily replacable? are the times u n tht sec 1 gd fren of mine better than the te times we had?

Labels: whr r u?

tdy my mood not bad. but then my result not very gd. so far...maths fail. eng fail. science overall still fail. histery fail. :( m i stupid? in tht sense. O: m i going to retain or even drop to acad nxt yr? stupid jane tan keep tell 1e3 tht nxt will have 2a3 waiting for us or stuff like tht. but then...got so easy drop to acad meh? i got lousy until will drop meh? hais...watever lah. i dun care this. dun let it spoil my mood. once in a while im in such a gd mood, better dun spoil. i hope tmr will b the same as tdy ^^. wait let me write down my 'shld-be' results here first.

eng/lit - 21/45 ( highest in the whole express stream lehh :P )
maths - 32/100 ( F9 T.T )
science - 49/100 ( overall fail ...by 1 pathetic mark.FUK LAH! )
mothertougue - 66/100 ( B3 )
history - 27/65 ( dunno D7 or E8 )
geography - amazingly i nvr fail. got C6. forgot the marks.
art - 60.4 ( i pass by 0.4 marks ^^ got C6 )

haiz...see? i dun even have one A. :( nvm its okay. tried my best le. nxt time just try harder lor. GANBATTE.

hmmm...im trying to think of new nickname. spike? nahhh sound like i calling dog liketht. .....OMG I CANNOT THINK OF ANY OTHER NICKNAME !!! i alrdy used up the really gd ones n they were all found out. hmmmm...someone help me think of new nickname!!! DUN GIVE THOSE DOMO CRAPS. I HATE THEM. fucking act cute -.- no offence to ppl tht hearts domo. i dun hate u. i just hate domo. shin-chan better. yayy tdy took same bus as yf ^^. but she ask me to go to sch first. oh well. tmr thrs an excursion for sec 1 to 3s. yayyy.

its the state of bliss u think u're dreaming, its the happiness inside tht u're feeling, it's so beautiful it makes you...wanna...cryyyy. ITS SO BEAUTIFUL IT MAKES U WANNA CRYYYY!!!

Labels: i need you noww, please dun go away, this innocence is brilliant

i got back some result tdy...i failed maths. got 32/100 :( n the whole sec1 lvl fail eng. shocking level : 50%. and i got the highest among the whole level. shocking level : 100%. omggggg. first time i got highest n first time i failed eng T.T i duno whether i shld celebrate or to go home n emo. tdyy i have to wear p.e shirt under my blouse. i too long nvr wear till liketht le then keep sweating. tsk tsk tsk. like my sweat keep drip down from my back ><

after sch i got 3 hrs before judo. i went across bbt shop thr with one whole bunch of judo frens n playyy till like mad. aftertht xx say my face pinkish pinkish de. >< but then this was not the worst. later judo nid to run up n down the sch 3 times then went back le xx say my face was TOTALLY REDDDDD. ok lahh i oso see until got afew ppl de face oso red red de. n...i just found out...I GGAINED WEIGHT LE!!! im currently 40 kg. i swear im gonna force myself to go back to 38 plus kg by this wed. actually, its quite easy for me, just nid to sweat sweat sweat then 2 kg jiu gone liao.

this sun got age group competition...im gonna get back a medal for myself this time. i dun wan tyco tyco de.

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tmr got judo le. yay...but i think it will b quite boring without important person no. 1. and no nid to say, i highly doubt important no. 2 will go. walao...siannnnnn. but then, i can finally get my wallet back from fren le. thinking back i find myself very careless sia. i find myself very stupid oso sia. i gave ppl the idea tht i smoke n tht i think tht that *another person is a flirt when clearly i dont. i can swear on anything n everything tht i dunt. :'( ok the las post i pei yf go across to eat lollipop* ? WAT I MEANT IS NOT THT LOLLIPOP IS SMOKE. I MEANT THT...as u all noe across means smoke right? i meant tht after yf did wat she wan then SHE HAD LOLLIPOP!!! IM ONLY 13 SMOKE WAT? now i dunno wat i shld do to make u believe sia. i really dunnn. omg headache headache. n seriously i dun think u r a flirt. when xx they all discussing abt u tht time i keep tell them no. u r not. now u tell me...? its abit saddening...does it mean tht u dun noe me enough?

anw tmr after 6pm got wat crap u wanna do tht kills time ( except for smoking) call me. 98508223. msg oso can but call better.

Labels: i look at my hands n feel sad cos the spaces between my fingers are right whr urs fit perfectly...

i had eng oral tdy. was supposed to go to sch by 10 plus but i reached thr at 7.05am. nth to do so i went across. bought pokey. i sat at staircase n everybody keep look at me like as if i pon-ed sch. so awkward. i went sch early tdy hoping i would catch the bus with yf but sadly...no. hais......

tdy i keep hope tht i might bump into important person no. 1 n 2 but nvr. its like they disappeared from the sch. i find exams make my frenship with all the other sec 2, 3, 4 n 5 grow apart. :( its like so long nvr see till them le. i can imagine if important person no. 1 n 2 grad sch le...my life...like a piece of blank sheet. important person no. 1 make me do things faster in the morning so i will not miss the bus, reminds me not to emo because i will rmb tht i still got her. important person no. 2 ... gives me a sense of secure. infact both oso give me a sense of secure-ness. he/she just have to walk pass my class unexpectedly n i wont b able to sleep during tht lesson because i will hope tht he/she walks pass again. once, i had maths lesson for 2 hrs, it was fucking boring. i was doing mr peterson's h.w during it actually, i do until i was going to nodd off,sleeping. i quickly finish it n put my head on the table, a few sec later i heard someone banging on the door, i shock then i wokeup, sat up, i look out at the door thr, i saw important person no. 2's fren stickng his head inside our class,then he walked away,i held my breath cos i was wondering if important person no. 2 is thr, then behind unexpectedly followed by important person no.2. i got so shock tht the whole 1hr plus left of maths class i cant sleep.

important person no. 1 gives me hope. like tht time i lost important person no. 2, its like the world going to end liketht, no exaggeration, im like going to die liketht. then after i rmb, still got her, i like feel much better ah but oso still quite down.eh...not tht she nvr help until. she did, she really did but is i cant get over it. it was my will.

Labels: chill out wat'cha yelling for? lay back, its all been done before...

im gonna b very careful from now onwards...tht las post was...>< wth. wont elaborate any further. tdy i was finally able to take the bus with yf. n honestly, somehow i think...i dunno...i just think, we drifted alittle apart. am i being too sensative? n her haircut makes her look so ... round? but it looks ok. as in like chubbier. (no offence though) i like her old hairstyle. anw, wah, like las frii missed the 162, sat n sun no sch. in just 3 days we can drift just a tiny bit apart...wat if after her o'lvls? a few months nvr see her, liketht will drift alot...isnt it? i dun wan tht to happen sia. like so scary... shes like the 1st most important person in my life. 2nd is...(if u noe the GOOD. if u dunt, guess then) i wonder how days will b like in sec2. take bus-alone. go sch-alone. go to judo-alone (ok lah, not alone as in i 1 person only) its like 1st most important person not in sch le. 2nd most important-cant b bothered to go for it. then if i lost the 2nd most important person again, tht 1 most important person nt in sch le then i by then really dunno wat to do sia. may break down (for once.if it did then...wow) nahh wont lah IM STRONG!!! : ) : . haha...y i keep moodswing ah? im crazy. it must b tht tiny fear in me.i think. ....when i liketht i think of the song complicated-avril lavigne. the first part ' cuz lifes like this...thts the way it is.' lol. i found a new fear. (1st fear. ghost (im fucking sensative to it) 2nd fear. injections( its a phobia actually) ). the fear of losing my love ones. im sure everyone will b scared of it oso.

to all my love ones(if u noe who u are), I LOVE YOU ALOT. U R ALL MORE IMPORTANT THAN MY FAMILY THEY ALL. U R THE ONES THT KEEP ME GOING ( especially the first two importantt ones ) I LOVE YOUUUUU. DUN FORGET BOUT ME !!! <3 without u all, i think i earlier alrdy emo till like fuck. now bo emo till like mad le lor. if u all had seen me las yr, i think...u will hhave to try to stop me from doing 'something' ( nth sick ).

Labels: dun leave me

i wonder...y ppl can so easily b zeus's gan? y u treat ur gans so gd? y cant it b me? y is thr a solid hard obstacle between us tht is so difficult to remove? its like i cant walk out of it but i can only walk pass it, everytime i meet it again, i have to think of new ways everytime to get pass it. n to b honest...im getting tired of it. its tiring to have to do it. y? i nvr expect u to break with ur gf or wat. i wan u to stay long with ur gf. i nvr expect myself to b with u. i just wan u to b nice to me. nth much le. such a small thing oso cannot? i like to think of the past... when we're in judo...when i was able to tok to u...when we have fun. will we b able to go back to being like tht? but i rmb the thing tht happened after the 'fun' period. aftertht few days it was like 360 degrees change. it turned into a downright depressing n stressful period. all the things tht happened...the things tht hurt our only frenship...the amt of tears i shed for it. it left a scar in me. it was a moment forever left etched in my head. i had a riff in my head...i just cant forget it. i keep asking myself why... i cant take it...i wasnt faking it...then, it happened you pass by.......then u're gone, somewhr i wasnt going back, the day u slipped away...was the day tht i found it wont b the same.................i miss u...miss u so bad.

today i saw u, i dunno whether to laugh or to cry. i didnt noe how to react. then out of the panic n shock, i picked the wrong expression by laughing...i see ur face, it changed my mood, i was feeling down, but i couldnt show it to anyone...so, i brought back the smile. it was difficult to keep it on my face...for long. i dunno y...i shld b happy, but, it reminds me of...certain things. i keep thinking over n over again...why me? and should i? maybe its fate, its meant to b like tht. fate didnt allow our frenship to go on till we r even just closer by abit. but then again...i still wan to ask, why mus it b u tht fate created the obstacle between us

Labels: i couldnt get around to see u again

i still n keep telling myself, u'll b thr when im down. i will keep repeating it to myself ' u'll b thr, u'll b thr, u'll b thr....' i dunno n dun think u'll b thr if anything happens. honestly, u dun nid to do much, u just have to b THR n thts the best n most effective way.

someone PLEASE go n fuck jane tan upside down, inside out. i think ah...not think, is cfm tht even if she put herself for free oso nobody wan her. jus cos of one art she has the urge to make it so big tht mr vasu has to write a letter to us regarding it -.-. my sis see alrdy oso find it lame. i kena scolding n beatings cos of it. then when in the midst of scolding, i use left arm to shield my face-incase father slap. then my knuckles facing my face. then WALAO wan hit me then he go push my hand then i knuckle until almost my eye, now the my right side socket ( the boney part )pain when u just lightly tap it :( pls no orh bak kak

Labels: i may b nid shades/ sunglasses

i still n keep telling myself, u'll b thr when im down. i will keep repeating it to myself ' u'll b thr, u'll b thr, u'll b thr....' i dunno n dun think u'll b thr if anything happens. honestly, u dun nid to do much, u just have to b THR n thts the best n most effective way.

someone PLEASE go n fuck jane tan upside down, inside out. i think ah...not think, is cfm tht even if she put herself for free oso nobody wan her. jus cos of one art she has the urge to make it so big tht mr vasu has to write a letter to us regarding it -.-. my sis see alrdy oso find it lame. i kena scolding n beatings cos of it. then when in the midst of scolding, i use left arm to shield my face-incase father slap. then my knuckles facing my face. then WALAO wan hit me then he go push my hand then i knuckle until almost my eye, now the my right side socket ( the boney part )pain when u just lightly tap it :( pls no orh bak kak

Labels: i may b nid shades/ sunglasses

tdy like any other day.first period p.e. basketball ^^ tcher ask us to play but dun dribble first. with me as a formal inter-sch captain ball player ( entered semi-finals de wor ) and kim n murni as netballers the 2 game was an easy game. win win win. after so many rounds we only lost 2 rounds. yay. tdy at maths class got sec 3 having their test outside my class. i only saw joel cos he sitting at the door thr.

tdy DnT most shiok de lor. i lunch eat until bao bao de. then after tht go enjoy the air-con n fb. ^^ shiok!!! and i tdy finally did one myself cos usually i ask fren help then like i do very little. now i did the whole thing myself!!! hahah so happy. and ppl thot i crazy de.lol. then through fb xx told me some stuff. better not put here. i not very happy and 2 other oso nt happy i think. oh ooh ~ nvm shall not get affected by such a small kid. she say i nvr study -.- nvm i noe i got study can le.

aftersch my sis ask me meet her at j8. saw so many BPSians @.@ i saw my class de. then later going to interchange thr take bus i saw joel, i shout the usual ' esther!!! ' lol so fun. haha then my sis go buy each-a-cup de pearl milktea. shes a regular sia. everyday go buy. crazy...

Labels: i noe i love u can le other ppl no nid to noe

la la laa~ no emo-ing :) for yf. NO EMO!!! n i wont get emo for a little kid tht hasnt grown up. haha. nth to blog. so boreddd. got show to recommend tht doesnt cos headaches if i watch too long? hmmm jigoko shoju live action de bah. haha. but i wonder, really got the web de meh. i think got one time i after watching it i bored to i go try to find the web. then i go through alot of fake ones tht appears on tht time ( somewhr afternoon ). then i think i stumbled upon a real one cos... i click on it, it came out as, not founded. so i think, thts the real one. o.o so means really got the hell gal? woah...scary. i rather suffer than ask the hell girl to bring the person i hate to hell cos if i did. when i die i will go to hell oso ( thts wat they say ). so i rather not. i scared die k? lol.
haiz nth to blog. oooh ya!!! over the weekends i almost got mental cos i cant play com. cos i miss ..... frens ._. . k nth to blog. see tmr got anything interesting then blog bah.

walao. tdy my mood damn bad. i was so down since i woke up. i got something on my mind again. then i go sch le. sit down awhile nia everybody all go up to hall. i didnt want go up. i wan to sit down. put head on table n think of the thing in my mind. then joshua come ka chiao. shoot ice at me. -.-. then first period science, damn moody ah. i dun even feel like saying anything. then aftertht, recess le, xx come upwards n lecture me. wat wat u very bad eh u like betraying them eh. walao she treat u so gd...bla bla bla. i like so moody she still come gimme this kind of thing. c'mon lah do u noe the real defination of betray? betray means, got troubles with ur best fren n another person. i be a hypocrite then after i noe all the things le i go help the other person n tell him/her all the stuff. did i do anything like that?

after tht i dun even wan to ans wat she say. i was fucking moody. i just walk abit faster lah cos i dun wan to argue with her over whose right n wrong. then like i just dun wan tok to anybody for the time being, including her. then after awhile ppl say we cold war -.- wat crap is this? i wasnt in a cold with her. u all oso dunno the thing then come anyhow come say -.-. like no one understand how i was feeling sia.

then whole day she ignore me -.- lame kid. the after sch got maths remedia. i went for it. then i sat with kimberly. then xx suddenly pass one note to me n kim say wat friendship broken. meaning dun wan fren me lah. -.- lame~~~ walao fucking lame sia. then say wat...dun call me, dun sms me, dun talk to me. so can i say tht she expects us to b all sad n apologise to her? me n kim saw the letter then start laughing. then she keep look in our direction.i think she is wondering y we r not sad? hah. in ur pale face. then now like i still dun understand y u she wan do this. i still got question mark in my head. n y she wan do this to kim. she oso nvr do anything. crazy -.- like a kid. then after tht i heard from lx tht xx starting to hate me? o.o like wat i do again? all blame on me again. i so innocent this time. wtf. i fucking dun care le. i alrdy made up my mind when i enter this sch, las time i crawl to ppl, now I WAN U TO CRAWL TO ME. aiya i say all this oso no use. oso no one care -.-




tired...
tired of life...
tired of setbacks...
tired of all the blames...
tired of everything...

Labels: i feel so lonely all of a sudden...

another...boring...day. i seriously feel very --- now. i just want u guys to treat me nicely IS THT SO DIFFICULT.does it cost anything?

nvm, like i said, its ok if u dun care cos u* oso got ur own stuff to care about.

haiz...cb. tdy i thought a perfect plan to help my fren n it worked perfectly, just now lx come tell me xx say i did something VERY wrong. like wtf i do again? ta ma de, like i do wat oso is wrong de. fuck lah, like little little things u will start to say, walao eh u very bad ...then wat wat craps abt betrayal. small small things u all oso wanna say betray. wtf damn lame sia. i feel fucking neglected sia. u all wat oso find fault in me. little little things u all say until like i very bad like that. ive had enough ok. im sick of u ppl telling me that im wrong all the time, having doubts in me, looking down on me n EVERYTHING. im sick n tired of all this. wtf is the prob now? i dun wan to fight with u ok. too bad tht i love yanfeng more than u ah. too bad tht u dun have ur fav senior in sch ah. n when i run to yf is not pangseh u lor. pangseh is when i walking with u then i suddenly walk away then like disappear till u cant even find me. u wan say pang seh i think its u who pangseh me. i see until yf go tok to her awhile nia then when finish tok liao u totally disappear. now is who pang seh-ing who? i nvr disappear right? im just right infront of u. thts called pangseh? walao damn fucking lame eh. we r no longer in primary sch anymore. WE R NO LONGER KIDS. stop acting like one. u think ur cute? no ur not. u think u r very mature?no. u have the heart of a little kid. ur mind is like pri 2,3,4. even i dare say confidently tht im more mature than u. although i noe im quite immature but still dare say my maturity level is higher than urs. when anything happens i just nid to noe u r sorry abt it then everything willl b fine, i will forget about, i dun even nid u to say sry. but u? sometimes a million sorrys n a billion sincerity DOESNT HELP.

Labels: wo lei le...

If this is not the place where tears are understood where
do I go to cry?

If this is not the place where my spirits can take wing
where do I go to fly?

If this is not the place where my feelings can be heard
where do i go to speak?

If this not the place where you'll accept me as I am
where can I go to be me?

Labels: poem

ytd one question...spoil my whole mood
tdy, another thing spoil my mood, walao eh, cannot one day happy happy de meh?
i really cannot tahan liao. i nid lollipop. very emo now.
i hate my father ttm.
ive nvr hate anyone so much as much as him.
if yshmaeil cant give me, yanfeng dun allow.
then im gonna find a way, watever the cause.
just 1 can le. i dun wan to share this time.
my father thinks tht my mom pampers me n my sis too much
wat crap is this?
u called tht pamper?
then now like if i wan something other than food n my needs,
i nid save my own fucking money.
plus i pocket money only got $5.
sch food so fuck expensive, eat alrdy left a few cents.
if i really wan, i will skip recess.
then im like so pathetic ah.
nid go piggy bank n cough out all the money.
last time i rmb my piggy bank got alot of $1 n some even got notes
now they are all left with 10 cents 10 cents
how pathetic.
haiz...financial crisis.

when i reach home i dun tok much to my father
cos i cant engage in a conversation with him for long
cos we will quarrel
then my sis oso got her business to mind
got her own bf to care.
n i dun give a damn

now im not asking for stead.
i dun need tht kind of love
i just wan u all to treat me nicely can le

tdy xx complain to me bout tht time i pang seh her when we return to primary sch
i admit i was being an asshole on tht day
but its cos im excited
then another thing,
when i see yanfeng, i immediately run to her.
but thts cos i love her alot.
y becos of tht time visit pri sch i pang seh u
ni jiu ren ding wo shi zhe zhong ren?
i feel so neglected sia
like its all my fault.

nvm, its ok,
i not sad cos u say tht to me
is cos i feel u still dunno me enough
n u very fast think tht im watever kind of person
n i also think u abit dun understand me.
u've nvr try before wat i try
so when i make a big fuss n go crazy u feel irritated.
u've nvr tried loving someone like a jie jie or kor kor as much as me
nvm its ok.

Labels: my thoughts... my heart...my everything

i started to think of all the lovely memories. although thr is only a tiny bit of it, to me it is the world most precious. but tht thrs this ques tht keeps bugging me, n it spoiled my mood...

y arent we like before?

i missed all the, although tiny but precious things tht had happened before. i want it back so much. will thr b a day similar to tht day?

Labels: will we ever b the same again?

ytd at 12.31 am i still cant sleep. then i wanted to post a 2nd post for ytd. then i blogged. i type until damn long. i type until no space to type liao lor then suddenly gimme one ' connection closed ' then im like wtf. then i went to retype all the shit i typed. i type for about 5 sentences then i suddenly rmb wat yanfeng told me last time. ' if late at night u very tired, shld go to sleep. cos if the *ah piao noe u havent sleep will come find u. ' or something like that. then cos u noe i tian bu pa di bu pa jiu shi pa *ah piao. so i quickly off my ds n go to sleep. scare the hell outta me.

T.T i was suppose to get my lollipop tdy. it was tht close. i could have just go sch n get it from yshmaeil immediately. but before i reach sch yf msg him tell him dun give me EVER T.T
I WAS SO CLOSE!!! T.T I WAS LIKE SO TO GETTING IT!!!! AHHH my heart so pain. i wan lollipop!!!! i must at least achieve something to get just 1 lollipop T.T i think i nid to survive a few months without it - again. cos the nearest competition is a fews months away T.T

anw back to sch. tdy lucky alvin told me tht zeus was at the lvl below us or not i cannot imagine my reaction when i see until zeus ALL OF A SUDDEN. i think i will panic like hell. i ran down the stairs abit. then walao xx walk so slow >< i dunno wat she was doing!!! i wait for her behind the pillar, my heart beat until fucking fast. then like my leg turn jelly, i was wobbling when xx finally walk until whr i was. then cos of my jelly legs i walk quite slowly n unexpectedly bump into zeus, so this time i really run. then i run n turn the corner then stand thr wait for miss-slow-poke to walk to whr i was again. then when i look straight, i saw yf. she ask me y i run. ofcos i told her why lah.

i wan lollipop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yf, rao le wo ba....

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tdy no sch. so morning sleep until like a pig like that :P i woke up at 11.55am then suddenly rmb that i meeting my sis at 12pm in J8. so like rush lor. brush teeth, change shirt then walk out of the house with a blur look and a curl-ed up side of my hair from ytd's sleep XD. then i keep comb my hair with my fingers.

then aft tht go homeee. like so bored ah. i go online fb oso see nobody online. cfm is alot ppl sleeping more like a pig than me. then oso nth to do. watch show oso keep lag. so BOREDDDD.

after finally 3 pm my sis come back from home from ITE. ok lah say nicer abit. she came from college central >:D . she used her iphone ( show off -.- ) to call home to call me to help her open the door. when i open the door she not even thr yet. i waited at the door for about 7 mins. this shows how slow she walks >:D im so mean hahahhahahahahah.

zeus not online ._. so siann. so bored. just now com suddenly lag like hell. then i close the windows internet explorer then on again. then i see suddenly all the thing load like so slow then i SHOUTTTTT at my sis like as if im mad like tht cos i scared com nvr load ( the blank page ), zeus come online then i cannot tok to him. so i keep shouting at my sis then panic here panic thr. lol like i crazy like that. hahah now finally com stop lagging liao. zeus not online T.T wthhh. tsk. lol. im so crazy. lol HAHAHAHA now nobody noe who is zeus MUA HHAHAHAHHAHA *cough *cough *cough

ahhh...zeus ^^ ~~~~ hahahhahahahaha. ooh gtg liao. bb. night night.

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mood swings r sooooo scary. lol. when i see the word mood SWING. i imagine me sitting on a swing. i swing 45 degrees upwards i change emo, become happy. when i go backwards, change again, become sad. lol. this is stupid. i noe dun have to tell me. haha.

im lacking of something... lollipops n yshmaeil still owes me 1. last fri nvr go sch cos he no mother tougue then no nid go sch or not he can gimme de lor. supposingly las thurs i shld get it from him, then got this guy, dunno...arbus? kena caught for smoking. yshmaeil heard it the day before, then he keep thinking of it ( not that he smoke ) then he nvr bring on thurs T.T my lollipop... he better give it to me nxt tues. cos I WAN ITTT!!!! im going mad without it. To yf, yes its twisted. i twisted it.

i wan ipod nano T.T especially when now my earpiece n i cannot listen to my MP3. i wan the red oneee :'( i wan ipoddd. i hate those stupid nerdy that gives that ' O: ' expression when he noes someone smokes. i dunno but whenever i see this kind of thing it makes me roll my eyes. like, wat a loser lah. n i wan to ask ' isit a big deal? isit that shocking? u nvr see before ah? ' its damn stupid.

tmr no sch, siannnn. one day no sch = no see zeus T.T so sadd. n i think cos no sch zeus will b out n about with frens? tsk haiz, then i at home, so bored T.T im gonna call ppl tmr liao. heheheheh. bored.

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