ytd one question...spoil my whole mood
tdy, another thing spoil my mood, walao eh, cannot one day happy happy de meh?
i really cannot tahan liao. i nid lollipop. very emo now.
i hate my father ttm.
ive nvr hate anyone so much as much as him.
if yshmaeil cant give me, yanfeng dun allow.
then im gonna find a way, watever the cause.
just 1 can le. i dun wan to share this time.
my father thinks tht my mom pampers me n my sis too much
wat crap is this?
u called tht pamper?
then now like if i wan something other than food n my needs,
i nid save my own fucking money.
plus i pocket money only got $5.
sch food so fuck expensive, eat alrdy left a few cents.
if i really wan, i will skip recess.
then im like so pathetic ah.
nid go piggy bank n cough out all the money.
last time i rmb my piggy bank got alot of $1 n some even got notes
now they are all left with 10 cents 10 cents
how pathetic.
haiz...financial crisis.

when i reach home i dun tok much to my father
cos i cant engage in a conversation with him for long
cos we will quarrel
then my sis oso got her business to mind
got her own bf to care.
n i dun give a damn

now im not asking for stead.
i dun need tht kind of love
i just wan u all to treat me nicely can le

tdy xx complain to me bout tht time i pang seh her when we return to primary sch
i admit i was being an asshole on tht day
but its cos im excited
then another thing,
when i see yanfeng, i immediately run to her.
but thts cos i love her alot.
y becos of tht time visit pri sch i pang seh u
ni jiu ren ding wo shi zhe zhong ren?
i feel so neglected sia
like its all my fault.

nvm, its ok,
i not sad cos u say tht to me
is cos i feel u still dunno me enough
n u very fast think tht im watever kind of person
n i also think u abit dun understand me.
u've nvr try before wat i try
so when i make a big fuss n go crazy u feel irritated.
u've nvr tried loving someone like a jie jie or kor kor as much as me
nvm its ok.

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