dear somebody～,
u sort of changed n...its hurting me. its just u dun noe it. my feelings , i hide them all the time so its not realky ur fault for not noeing. im like 'a dark cloud tht is blocked by multiple fake clouds n my ever deceiving sun ( or smile ) ' its like the old u is gone...just like ur hair. whr r u? wat i see tdy...nowadays...is not really u. its also like ur getting closer to another person*. n i dun hate tht person, he can say is quite a gd fren to me among the sec 1s. i dun hate u too. i nvr hate u. im just ... i dunno. im confused with my feelings i dunno if im hurt, angry, sad, happy, bored or moodless. i not say u cannot get close to other ppl. yes u can ofcos. but at the same time, u get closer to other ppl but u forget bout me aft tht. ya, maybe its cos im not tht important to u but, u have no idea how important u r to me. its like u now dun care me alrdy...another way to say it is tht u dun care me as much as last time alrdy. am i dislikable? am i boring? ya, maybe. my LIFE is boring. another thing, do i fit in? u noe aft tdy i keep thinkng of this? i keep think ' maybe im too tame to fit in with u? so i like very extra liketht with u all. a guai kia trying to fit in? i was deep in thoughts when u just walk away liketht aft cca. to u this thing might b ' like tht ONLYY' but its not to me. i miss las time jan to feb the period. but i wan to erase march the period. during jan to feb. everything was perfect. i was fine with u. i was fine with...i still cant think of a nckname!!! k lah its zeus. but march the period was terrible, stress pile up one another. wont mention wat tht stress was. i dun wan to remind myself of the terrible time when i lost important person no. 2. i wan to ask. do u rmb the happy times we had anot? do u rmb us waiting for each other? thr r many more stuff i wan to ask if u rmb but i dun wan to say. i wan to ask. am i so easily replacable? are the times u n tht sec 1 gd fren of mine better than the te times we had?

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