hey ppl. mi fone just got smashed. mi keyboard just got confiscated. lol. u shld b wondering by now y i still can type right? lol i got damn bored at home a few days ago when my father haven come back home from work. so i look EVERYWHR!!! n i mean EVERYWHR for my keyboard. then i finally found it. now secretly posting. no one tagged my tagboard. no ones reading this blog. -.- its almost as gd as dead. nvm. dun wanna ruin my ok ok, neutral mood by thinking so much.

life have been...ok...better than last time. cos got YF!!!! other thing no more. oh ya. did a quiz at remedial last fri. n i fucking passed man!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 14/18. i could have get all correct de lor!!! tht 3 marks tcher sabo. when i finally found out wat mistake i made then tcher go take my paper away to collect. -.- basket...then tht stupid 1 mark is cos careless. atleast i pass. hahah. but then now i dunno is before tht quiz or after tht quiz got one class test then......haiz. 2/20. atleast i got improve by 1 mark compared to the last test. lol. oh ya last test becos i freaking careless again i lost 8 marks!!!!!!!!!! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

down with flu n cough oso. kns. got cough nvm. but cos flu!! i cannot even smell anything. they say someone from my class got b.o . i try to smell tht person oso cant smell a single thing. T.T pls flu go away!!! for the last 2 days i used up like 26 n a half packets ok tissue. no joke. at mon i bought 13. then at tues i ask fren help me buy 14 but i used 13 packets. lucky i ytd go see doc alrdy. then not so jia lat. now my nose the skin damn pain. i clean it with tissue to much liao. now become rudolph the red nose raindeer. >< oh ya n tdy i went sch at 9am. lol. overslept. XP

this post might b the last or maybe not last post before i can get my keyboard back n....TAG PLS!!!!!! empty tagboard makes me paranoid.

i miss last time de u. ur ponytail all tht. dunno y putri n me suddenly start toking bout u when we in the bus going to j8. then i like. suddenly miss last time alot. hahas~ i felt like i missed out alot of things last time. regret? abit. thn this mon training got this like...way of training...tht i dunno how to explain. its like we stand in our rows n face our partner then start training then like move to ur dunno which direction then ur partner will like change change change...ok i noe very difficult to understand. if u understand then u smart lor. ya anw then i thought of u. cos last time oso got like train before then i rmb i tio u. then still got last time de stuff...quite alot. no time to elaborate. hahas~~~. nvm...

how do we get here?
when i used to noe u so well~~~

































































































































































its like...u dun care bout me as much as last time lor...hahas~~

i feel like...playing with my penknife. but yanfeng says no. ... ok i listen. i shall stand through all the pain...till it all ends. one...fine...day.

3 days le...
still feeling the same :(
how? shld i apologise for all tht atitude?
fren says no.
shld trust him.
but at the same time...
i dunno y.
feel apologetic for the way i tok to u tht day
haiz...i very stupid sia...
this is not like me.
whrs my smile?
i cant find it.
i cant hide behind it this time.
i always hide behind it
but this time i cant find it :(
wats worst is u dunno how im feeling
nvm. like u'll care when u noe.
haaahaas~~~
im trying to smile :):
haha~~~
ok. tmr try to SMILEEEE
dun wan ppl to ask or maybe some will worry? ( or dun have )
i so dumb.
i keep replay tht ques yanfeng asked
' u think its worth it not? '
i noe its not
thts y now stop cutting.
but still got abit quite sad
dunno y i sad for.
mind too active. keep thinking
shouldnt think so much
now nid'a save another fren tht got caught in the same situation as me
dun wan her to b dumb like me
shes smarter de
i suddenly feel like toy like tht
but i think is think too much bah
u* wont so bad as to treat me like tht hor?
i...dunno the ans.
shld try to smile again. hahas~~~ :DD

i...got...NO FEELINGS. im ice. my heart is made metal. b strong b strong now. dun nid. im strong enough.

tdy nth to blog de. wake up. laze in bed n play ds for abt 1 hr then willing to get out of bed n all. cos stomach calling me. then go feed rabbit. then make bread for myself. then sit on sofa...stone for quite long then finally go on com. go see ur* old foto again. sit on the chair n stone again while thinking of last time de things. really miss it alot. really dun wan this yr to end. really really really dun wan this yr de sec 4 n 5 to b gone.

anw, got thing to say. wat i dun like. dun like it when ppl say they will do something or not say will make something then u got damn happy then in the end they nvr do it. it nvr happened. or they push the responsibility like they ask u to ask other ppl. -.- i dun like it. its like wtf ah. waited so long in the end. nvr happen.

u said it. u told me u will. i took it so seriously. in the end wat happen? it nvr happened. u pushed it to other ppl. i was happy. i was excited. my hopes were so high but in the end? u crushed it all the way down. i was disappointed but i didnt want to admit i was cos its u. now i realised how disappointed i was. i wondering ' wth? u said u were. u say u will. u said after tht i will b. but now...? tht days nvr gonna happen ' n all u told to me to clear all this was ' ask so n so or who n who. they noe it '

ok...dunno y i suddenly think of it n get so worked up. haha. no use getting worked up. anw i keep thinking tmr is mon then i go j8 buy the art stuff. i hate arttt. stupid jane tan keep expecting us to buy things like tracing paper...colour paper...etc. etc. etc. for students tht are not so lucky like me. whenever oso can buy. haha. i find them quite ke lian. nid cough out the money to buy all tht stuff. n its not like got so much time to go j8 to buy although i noe my home damn close to it ah but oso dun have the time wat. lol? haiz...sianzxc ttm x.x wish i had more time n freedom. just a little bit more...i wanna go out myself n see the worlddddd～.....

tdy i sort of sleep through he whole day. woke up. watch tv. eat. watch tv watch tv. then sleepppppppppp. till late afternoon. woke up. then laze around. then suddenly xx call me like crying like tht. scary. reason cos rabbit die. lol. she cry till so jia lat. wah if rabbit die le then she cry till like tht then imagine if any of her relative or even parents (touch wood) die then she will cry till like WAT.THE.FUCK.

anw. finally can come back home cos i every weekend must go grandma house stay which means no com. siannnn.lol. so tdy i came back must move my rabbit to kitchen cos my father side de relatives from hk coming sg cos they wanna go universal studio -.- ...on...not gd timing...on august. then they wan use our study room. last time my rabbit in study room de now nid move. sian. wait...fuck. someone call. nvr tok. make me hello hello 4 times -.- stupidddd. i swear tht person call again i gonna scold le. hate this kind of thing. anw back to it. so more poor rabbit nid to stay in the kitchen for awhile.

thn thts abt all. boreddd. my life is like this. is like video recorder spoil then keep replay n replay everyday. tsk. tmr...haiz. another boring day with me n com only. k. bb. got anything. text or call me. free to ans ur calls anytime. unless u suay n call me when i left my fone in a diff room.

lols now in com lab. mr peterson let all those finish h.w de to go com lab play com. lol but the com here suck. the space bar oso got prob. i nid press until so hard then will space. wth. anw damn hungry now. later got remedia immediately after sch. siannnnn. fucking siannnn. no lunch. im gonna die x.x i gain weight le T.T n i only grow 1 cm taller T.T omggg howww? i damn short ehh. :( someone help me to grow tall.