3rd post >< omg. so many things in my heart.

back to it. tht 1% of fren keeps getting jealous when i treat other frens better than them. yes, i noe u( tht 1% of fren ) , just wants a fren to love u n stay with u all through but HOW R U GONNA MAKE ME LOVE U MORE WHEN U KEEP NEGLECTING ME, THOUGH I ALWAYS SMILE AT U, N KEEP THINKING OF URSELF BEFORE EVERYONE. i noe u(1% fren ) think im writting absolute trash just cos u does some nice stuff to me but have u ever thought of this, if u love me like a sister or a very very very very gd de fren, would u wan me to b happy or rather have urself satisfied n happy first? im not saying ur wrong but sometimes u were being abit TOO selfish. u have to noe urself or maybe find out urself tht who r u to me before complaining to me abt lack of love. its not when u treat me like a bestfren then i treat like one too. sometimes things dun work tht way. a gd example would b tht, yes i treat yanfeng like a sister, a very gd one, i sometimes treat her better than my own sis but i noe, without her saying, deep down, im not in the 'right' position so i have no complains of lack of love, though maybe i used to but now i noe, n i found it out myself , so, there will b no more of those silly, childish complains before i am happy as long as she, n all the frens or maybe someone special, is happy, i am ( really! ) also happy, n satisfied. now tht ive poured all tht out i shld stop writting all this boring stuff n leave u all ( though i dunno whether if there r any ) to rest ur eyes after reading my thoughts. haha