nvr blog for so long.
father ask me put my ds outside my room before i go sleep -.-
daddy, u dun understand me.
i play ds at night not cos i dun wan sleep
i so want to sleep
but whenever i alone
n its dark n quiet
my mind wanders
i start to think of silly things
n most of them saddens me
i play ds at night cos i wan play till eye pain
so can go sleep without thinking of anything
its a form of distraction for me
cos, i dun wan emo le
i wan stay as happy as the past few days had been
i dun wan cos at night think of silly things
then emo emo emo.
not a good feeling
n especially when i got no one to tok to
no one to express my feelings
last time i used to have this feeling...
its like ur on the verge of losing urself
sometimes its so intense
i 1 min feel like bursting into tears ( but cant )
then awhile later i feel like killing someone.
its like , i feel so stuffy with everything bottled up
lol

silly silly silly
nvm.
dun tok bout this kind of sad stuff
i wan stay this EXTREME hyperness
its the kind of feeling im waiting for
when im happy
n nth matters in the world
im like this cheery person
jump here jump thr
scream at ppl...LOL. happy till scream can?
not those wu yuan wu gu scream
then like got this warm n cosy feeling in my heart
haha.
i've been like this for the past few weeks
n i've been kinda crazy
but still its nice feeling like this :DDD