im.thinking...
this.wed.mr.lin
tok.a.bunch.of.crap.to.me
the.only.thing.i.rmb
was.tht.he.say
i.changed.during.sept?
wat.happen.to.me?
did.i.really.change?
i.changed.into.wat?
hahas.
if.is.sept.change.
must.be.something.happen
during.august...
i.dun.rmb...
or.is.it.i.dun.wan.to.rmb
ok.let.see...
phrenz.carnival..
O.O.okk...just.saw.my.old.post
ALOT.OF.THING
thr.were.mixed.feelings
of.confusion,regrets...
negative.n.positive.yuki.appeared?
ya,thts.confusion.
and.then.a.sudden.feeling.of.numbness?
ok.i.seriously.dun.rmb.much.of.these.
letme.see.sept.de
thr.were.days.tht.i.couldnt.sleep.
i.was.freaking.angry.with.someone.
i.was.fed.up.with.myself
n.a.bunch.of.stupid.ppl
then.somewhr.in.the.middle
i.was.freaking.freaking.happy
tht.happiness.just.died.out
sometimes.i.think
all.those.happiness.were
illusions?
like.something.fake?
nvm.back.to.it
was.very.angry.with.sherlin.chau
n.my.father
...
k.i.almost.hit.a.guy
then.when.sept.ending
sudden.loneliness.set.into.me
slowly.slowly.become
insecure?
soo
THTS.WHEN.I.START.TO.FEEL.INSECURE!!!
ok.ok.ok
i.figure.abit.thing
k.let.me.somemore
then.last.two.days
or.last.two.post.of.sept
suddenly.get.worried
oct.coming.
yf.graduating
so.i.had.my.feelings.all.mixed.up
i.felt.happy,sad,insecure
then.a.sudden.rush.or.anxietyyy
oooo.
starting.to.get.abit.clear
i.was.feeling.insecure
confidence.n.self.esteem.dropped
plus.slight.peer.pressure
from.tht.stupid.bunch.of.ppl
urged.me.to.change
...
seriously
sometimes.i.think.im.manic.depressive
its.whr
1.week.im.freaking.happy
nxt.week.im.freaking.depressed
n.also.thr.times.whr.tht.person
dun.noe.themself.
i.think.quite.like.me?
hahas...
then.oct.come
this.month.like.shit
dun.even.have.a.happy.post
-.-haizz...hahas.

i.think.i.got.my.ans.le
but.i.not.very.sure.is.right
i.changed.somewhr.sept
is.cos.of.multiple.feelings.compressed.tgt
plus.a.slight.peer.pressure
which.made.me.change
then.somewhr.at.the.end.of.sept
because.of.loneliness
i.began.to.think.of.changes.in.life
n.how.much.i.dun.wan
happy.times.to.go
i.start.to.get.insecure
then.cuz.of.the.compression.of.feelings
n.peer.pressure.
it.caused.my.confidence.n.self-esteem.to.drop
when.those.important.things.drop
it.oso.caused.further.changes.in.myself
omgggg...
someone.tell.me.im.wrong.
cos.this.kind.of.thing.i.noe
but.dunno.wat.to.do.to.reverse.them
hahas...

but.then.still.got.abit.thing.i.still.dunno
i.noe.the.cause.of.change.le
but...when.i.change
i.change.into.wat?
tht.one.must.really.ask.other.ppl
cos.when.u.change
u.dun.noe.it.

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