Friday, December 31, 2010
struck 12 at 11:59pm tdy, its gonna be a whole new year its also gonna b a whole new life for me ima try to change into a better person a more likable person less 'stupid-er' more mature im not gonna make the mistakes i made this year im gonna try not to hurt ppl like how i did this year cuz thrs karma in this world n i totally forgot abt it this year. im gonna slack less n study more im gonna TRY not to sleep in maths lesson. im gonna buck up in maths im gonna take good care of myself i'll try to b more positive and less paranoid. lol im gonna tone down ALOT. im gonna save more money for more shopping haha. im not gonna b as silly as this year im not gonna b affected by things tht ppl say bout me tht is not true ( cuz not true MEANS not true. they just dun noe me enough, they just judge me by the cover. ) im NEVER GONNA GET NEAR A PENKNIFE. unless its for art. this year is lucky got someone like yf tht cared ornot i die liao. nxt year i must take care of myself im gonna keep a pack of sour candy in my bag to wake me up incase i feel sleepy. im gonna b stronger. im gonna take better care of fluffy instead of torturing n ka chiao-ing her like i did this year. im gonna do all MY HOMEWORK!!! even if its art. haha. Labels: its time to say goodbye cuz im gonna b a whole new person., the mistakes i made, the stupid stuff i've done Saturday, December 25, 2010 i lifted my mood abit it seem so foolish of me to get so down when everyones having fun n i change to christmas songg it sort of encourage me to b happy. haha shake it up, shake up the happiness wake it up, wake up the happiness c'mon y'all, its christmas time ok christmas songs r lifting my mood. teeheexc. this works better than ice cream n sweets all so fattening ><. Labels: mood lifted finallyy Friday, December 24, 2010 its only 56 mins left to christmas and my mood just... dunno. flunctuate? swing? feel like apologising to the ppl i've treated badly this year now wan me count like got a few im so bad. ima bitch. then again i wanna give myself a fucking tight slap and shout at myself to ' MOVE ON!!! GET ON WITH LIFE!!! ' arghhh i siao alrdy fa yang dian. relapse of mental prob. siao eh. i emo for wat? tmr is christmas le must b happy. i think i seriously got mental prob awhile happy later hand itchy or kpo see something or WOTEVER then emo. haha. AIYAAA!!!!!! I EMO FOR WATTT??? I WAN TO BEAT MYSELF UP FOR BEING STUPID... lalalalala. no im ok. just now i went youtube saw alot of rabbit got one type of bunny the eye so freakishly huge so scary. HAHAHA! no. no no nooooo fluffy cuter. NO she cutest. HAHAHHA!!! just suddenly wish i can die for tht sec 3 senior... WTF. NO. WHY DID I SAY THT? lol i anyhow spam. lol just now tht one was crazy talk i too young to die hahahas. lalalalaaaa. 'rocking on a rocking chair~' - ( rocking chair over turn ) OWWWWWW!!!! i cannot find a way to describe it it's thr inside all i do is hide i wish tht it would just go away wat would u do, you do, if u knew? wat would u do? all the pain i thought i knew all the thoughts leads back to u back to wat was nvr said. back n forth inside my head i cant handle this confusion im unstable someone plsss, come n take me away from here i feel like i am all alone all by myself i need to get around this my words r ( freaking ) cold (when i matters ) i dun (NVR) wan to hurt u if i show u i dun think u will understand cos no one (ever) understands... as soon as i get my new fone shld b w508 bah. father dun wan me get ex fone cos he say later end up in pieces again then he heartpain. lol im gonna find some very mature ppl to tok to someone tht will explain things to me make me laugh nvr hurt me always thr for me nvr ever kup my fone. like the last 2 i have they all left me le :'( dunno whether got anymore ppl like tht exist in the world not Labels: btw merry christmas ppl. dun think much will see this Thursday, December 23, 2010 wah. so late le but still cannot sleep. this afternoon sleep too much le heheh. using cousin de laptop so good lor got laptop but this lappie is freaking slow my uncle bought from sales. -.- lols. i wasted the whole holiday eat. sleep. eat. sleep or not is train. train. train. didnt do much. hmmm. i went to dk house with jana a few times. ^^ his dogs so cute Lucky n Coco. jana say lucky will bite ppl when got carried up but she nvr bite me ley. haha tht time after i leave the house jana say lucky went emo haha :P n coco... SO CUTEEE she slept on my lap went to eat at kfc with yf n mr yeo twice this whole hol. yf got visit judo a few times :DDD n other than tht i did nth i like lifeless like tht i think some basterd or bitch go hack into my fb acc atfirst got 89 unknown fren request which i ignored cos i dunno them then this wed go back left 5. knn i nvr even accept my aunt fren request go back n see, she go comment on my post -.- thts the reason i nvr accept them fren is say something they dun like must KPO. my acc. my status. my frens. my limited freedom to post watever i wan to make the frens i wan ji shi lun dao ni shuo hua? nvm change password liao if i found out who fiddle with my acc I'LL KILL YOU! i have something to say i dun like guys who act ah beng just cos the fren is one oh puh-lease! so wat if he ur bro big shot ah? he abandon u le u how? ZHEN QI YI DIAN! omg i so jing shen tht i can do maths now. howww??? cannot sleep!!! fb all one by one go sleep liao. tmr i going to b a baby-sitter i nid babysit my cousins.lol ok thts freaking random. nth to say le merry X'mas eve peeps! and bb as i try to find something to do Wednesday, December 22, 2010 i never felt this way before, everything that i do reminds me of you... Tuesday, December 21, 2010 ytd. i kena insulted twice -.- wat suay day is tht? was in a bus with YFFF, jana n dk. i said something real mean abt someone then i realise i damn bad so i slap my face lightly. then dk say ' come i help u slap ' i havent even say anything his palm come n slap me. quite hard. n pain sia. i pissed then i scold him quite loud. i scold ' KNN ' then i start mumbling all the vulgarities i kick him then slap him then got this aunty say i keep scold she niam niam niam. then i like tok back abit. then yf come n tell me dun tok back i say cuz dk slap me thts y i piu cui. dk say ' wat? i slap her like tht only ' then he go slap jana. ( i kena shock abit. lol. ) jana say pain n piu another ' fuck u ' then tht auntie niam n niam n niam got off the bus the auntie still scold first insult, she at first say i from pri sch ok i noe this one no big deal. lol but still, i dun like. second insult, she say my parents nvr teach me -.- wah i getting damn hot i shoot her one ' I NO MOTHER EH, KNN.' haha, later on i slap my mouth for saying tht then the rest is all yf shoot back third insult, she say we all hooligans -.- lol she nvr see before real one thts why she siao one. say wan noe our address she say ' u all r going to b the future sg citizens...blah blah ' by tht time she alrdy die lo. then she say wan call bps call lah. see she can find all of us jana going to cut hair i going let my fringe grow longer all going to change look le see how she find she say as senious citizens she have the rights to take care of us -.- i mumbled one ' u my mother ah? ' omg seriously y i keep scold got the ' mother' inside one? LOL. she cfm + chop cannot find yf then yf n dk keep shoot until she walk away heheh. i noe whr the aunty live quite close to dk house go home late n quarrel with family quarrel until like shit again my aunty scold me n say ' go out b ah lian, ah huay be hooligan lah ' i seriously think not alot ppl noe wat is hooligan cfm is they nvr see before then abit abit say hooligan later ppl like them anyhow go out n say ah lian, ah huay got 7th slashing incident. lol. :X i told myself after kena scold tht ' everyone needs somebody to tell them its alright cuz i understand.' and its something they wont say cuz everything i do is wrong to them. Labels: IM GONNA GET A NEW FONE :P Friday, December 17, 2010 i dun wan to bullied no. i dun like it at all when someone older than u bigger size than u older than u have more power than u bully u...wat can u say wat can u do? when u're me? when u're so small so physically weak u cant do much only thing to feel better is to let it go. and nvr show tht guy ur tears haha. wat am i saying? theres more than meets the eye. is this retribution? isit cuz i used to hurt emil before then now im feeling the same? i noe y he will give up on me. now i think i about to? hahaha jonas told me something n i swear. fucking fucking swear. i rather dun noe tht i rather noe nth at all ignorance is bliss. i dun wan to b like tht i tried. i really tried alot of times i ask myself ' y u like tht? u siao ah? zhen qi yi dian. ' but...i cant stop ppl from telling me things tht hurt, i dunno wat im gonna see next n if it hurts i oso cant help it cuz i dun noe. now i dunno wat to do i feel like running away from this world i dun wan to noe i dun wan to hear i dun wan to see and i dun wan to love cuz it hurts it hurts more than a bullet straight through ur heart n the worst thing is tht wound heals slower than any wound u ever noe so ppl can pour salt n vinegar whenever they wan im not being a sadist its true ' haha ' is all tht i keep telling myself i tell every one tht but sometimes its just so hard to hold back yes, im weak. im physically n mentally weak i have low iQ im dumb im stupid i fall into traps easily i thought thrs nvr any guy worst than my dad. my cousin. no i was wrong. not every guy is as good as they look guys...most of them r like blocks of wood u tickle their neck they no feeling u fucking kill yourself, cry urself into a sad little pulp, u cut urself like cutting paper. they see n ask u just say ' no its nth ' n they dun care le. even if they noe they oso cant do much anyway. so wats the point? u love so u get hurt? u not tired i tired. im very tired but... It's hard to wait around for something you know might never happen ; but it's even harder to give up when you think it's everything you want. so im officially lost n confused i dunno wat to do who to believe and wat to believe. better yet. dun see dun hear dun noe n dun love be nth. b a lil' kid whr the only love u noe is from ur mom, dad family. Wednesday, December 8, 2010 i hope u can hear me cuz i wanna say they days u slipped away was they day i found it wont b the same go on, tell them i was happy i was stupid i fall for everything, every word tell them wat i wish for was impossible n was this idiot waiting, dreaming. n i was this little idiot in pain, but still standing? urghhh. watever im being silly. i dun even noe wat i saying now.lol 我要坚强。我不要做以前的小傻瓜。 haha. |
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