i dun wan to bullied
no. i dun like it at all
when someone older than u
bigger size than u
older than u
have more power than u
bully u...wat can u say
wat can u do?
when u're me?
when u're so small
so physically weak
u cant do much
only thing to feel better is
to let it go.
and nvr show tht guy ur tears
haha. wat am i saying?

theres more than meets the eye.
is this retribution?
isit cuz i used to hurt emil before
then now im feeling the same?
i noe y he will give up on me.
now i think i about to?
hahaha
jonas told me something
n i swear. fucking fucking swear.
i rather dun noe tht
i rather noe nth at all
ignorance is bliss.

i dun wan to b like tht
i tried. i really tried
alot of times i ask myself
' y u like tht? u siao ah?
zhen qi yi dian. '
but...i cant stop ppl from telling me things tht hurt,
i dunno wat im gonna see next
n if it hurts i oso cant help it
cuz i dun noe.

now i dunno wat to do
i feel like running away from this world
i dun wan to noe
i dun wan to hear
i dun wan to see
and
i dun wan to love
cuz it hurts
it hurts more than a bullet straight through ur heart
n the worst thing is
tht wound heals slower than
any wound u ever noe
so ppl can pour salt n vinegar whenever they wan
im not being a sadist
its true
' haha ' is all tht i keep telling myself
i tell every one tht
but sometimes
its just so hard to hold back

yes, im weak.
im physically
n mentally weak
i have low iQ
im dumb im stupid
i fall into traps easily
i thought thrs nvr any guy worst than
my dad. my cousin.
no i was wrong.
not every guy is as good as they look

guys...most of them r like blocks of wood
u tickle their neck
they no feeling
u fucking kill yourself,
cry urself into a sad little pulp,
u cut urself like cutting paper.
they see n ask
u just say ' no its nth '
n they dun care le.
even if they noe they oso cant do much
anyway. so wats the point?
u love so u get hurt?
u not tired
i tired. im very tired
but...

It's hard to wait around
for something you know
might never happen ;
but it's even harder to
give up when you think
it's everything you want.

so im officially lost n confused
i dunno wat to do
who to believe
and
wat to believe.

better yet.
dun see
dun hear
dun noe
n dun love
be nth.
b a lil' kid
whr the only love u noe
is from ur mom, dad
family.

Labels: only stupid ppl will believe. like me.