haizzz... i mia so long ><
this whole week i sleep less than 8 hr
will die. i thurs sleep 3 hr only
wah i go sch sleep thr whole day. lol
lucky all mr wan lesson
i am mr wan favourite :DDD
then he let me sleep. haha
then i close my eye n open again sch end liao.
assembly oso can fall asleep.
tht day really damn tired
all cuz of one fucking piece of art.
stupid sia.
sch so siannnn.
im gonna buy another fone
asap. im dying without
i tdy suddenly in the midst of lesson panic.
i thought i still have my fone
n i thought i lost
end up i rmb-ed. wth :(
sadddd.

nowadays i like off mood sia :/
dunno y.
i like a zombie like tht
no feelings. just study.
somebody put some colour into my life.

im in the com lab
having media studies now
tcher let us play com. hahas

my fone got smashed. again.
but im gonna get one again
asap. got ang pao money
now i nid'a stay in my grandma house for 1 week
like as if i got sent to jail like tht
it sux thr. i wan to b alone thr
but when im alone for 5-10 mins
i feel lonely. but not cuz i wan my aunt all this around
i guess im homesick.
i dunno. i really think im crazy.
when im at thr
i feel uncomfortable becos i feel like
im in a place so far from u
like im in another country :/
lol im..insane.

kk recess liao. bai bai!

11th feb'11. friday.
haha yanfeng came tdy for judo again ^^
at first i nvr expect her to come.
then i see her n i ...HAPPII!!!
i no voice to tok liao. haha.
i think i got sorethroat but my throat not pain. lol
funny right? hahah. but its a gd thing.
i wonder if yanfeng going judo on mon :/
i think mon i go sch must guai kia style
skirt must longer.... >< i dun wan siaa!!!!!!!
OMFGGG but for yanfeng I WILL SURVIVE~~~!!!
( happy part bout friday )

dear you,
i think i might have found myself a rival.
u noe wat? im not close to tht person
just a fren of my fren
she didnt tell anyone abt
n this world got so many ppl for her to confess
but who did she choose ------- me.
even my fren was staring at her. lol
i dunno lah. im just.....scared?
hahas ya for once im actually scared...
im scared cuz i dunno wat the future holds
anything can happen in a second
n i oso cant tell myself tht, no...nths gonna happen.
but i dunno...haha im at a lost for words...
last yr wan emo can emo til 3 post
now i like nth much to say uh.
haha maybe i shld just relakkk. take a kit kat
ya but... lol still..abit........................ scared here:X
its like i dun feel save..? LOL im insecure
haha lol i stupid lah. anyhow think...
i cannot think negative lah
cuz i nearly always realise its nth in the end
like i scaring myself only. haha.. :):
( the not-so-good part bout friday )

12th feb' 2011. saturday.
lol tdy is a sian day :DDD
a bit lucky only i think
i suppose to have chinese tuition
WHY SIA?? mii chinese got a1. LOL
ok i noe im being bhb noww..
but seriously, WHYYY???
my aunt say get 80 over then dun nid
fine lah, i scored 84. now she still wan me go
stew piddddddd
father ask me wash fluffy's cage
so i wash slowly cuz just woke up
i gong gong. alot of time i stop washing n stone~
then abt 5 min plus then i realise i stoning
end up i do so slow tht no time for tuition, LOL
n btw i got fever LEYY just nice 37.6 degrees. HAHAHHA
funny sia. then my dad stop asking me to rush abt.
gd lah dun nid waste time thr.


hmmm.... i paranoiding. LOL
i dunno y i really lost for words man
nowadays when im feeling down
i cannot find a way to describe it
its thr, inside,
all i do is hide.
i wish tht it would just go away..

haha i think i shld blog more on myself..
im noisy. yes. im loud. yes.
im full of confidence. no.
im noisy n im loud cuz inside is just someone diff
im loud most of the time
cuz i wan to block all the whisperings of my fears
everytime i keep quiet or settle down
im always reminded of my fears
they just keep whispering
i dun show wat i really am
i mean. SERIOUSLY.
i look confident,
i act like im in a constant supply of confidence
thts cuz im trying to b confident
but im not. i really m not.
i just wan to b different from wat i used to b in pri
i dun wan to b a pushover
i dun wan to b ppl's dog n get bullied
i wan to b the boss of myself
I DUN EVER wan ppl to bully me every again
im....phobic...i guess. haha
but things r pretty fine now in sch
dun really have ppl bullying me
tease...ya sometimes. its ok as long as its not nasty
but dude im a human
it does hurt sometimes
but i dun care lah.
i wan to b care free as possible.
haha.

tdy after training something cool happened.
lol tdy training i think
i do more thing for mr yeo than train
they move the lockers
mr yeo like seriously strong man
he one person can move the locker.
i rmb once he lift me up one hand
by pulling my belt from behind
then i like dangling in mid air. LOL

k anwwwww,
training end liao
ppl start leaving liao
so i quickly ask everybody to close the dojo
then i keep shout n shout
but every single person in the hall
didnt even turn to look at me
ok lah. got 2 sec 1 guy look at me
then go back to do their thing
like nobody's business.
wth. lol. i shout more than 5 times
no joke kayyy.
then i just like forget it lo..
then i tying my hair til half
cuz jonas LAHHHH
keep pull out my hairband
then suddenly mr yeo say
' ok everybody in the hall down 20 '
then he add ' except yuki ' LOL
then everybody down liao he say wat
' when yuki ask u all to close the dojo...
wat wat wat give her the power to ....
she tell u all to close the dojo is not a request
is a command...something something.. '
then like scold everyone sia. lol
but i think his whole point is to say
when i ask them close dojo they shld go
then like he gimme power to ask them do something
or something like tht... roughly like tht.
abit funny sia. lol. i watch them do
first time i the only one dun nid do ^^
but like cool man!!!
i wish i can replay the whole thing.
HAHA.

Labels: replayyyyy~~~

ok i noe its like 4 in the morning
n ppl reading this r probably
wondering y im still not in lala land
but i suddenly thought of something

im a good girl :D
i dunno y my family thinks im rebellious
but seriously I AM a good girl.
i dun dye my hair
i dun do make up
im not hiao
my skirts not really short
n i dun taper my skirt
i dun go out til 10 plus at night
in fact i dun even go out much
i laze at home. LOL
i dun skip judo
wth, i mark the attendence everyday
n i open n close the locker everyday
i dun wear skimpy
my shirt all t-shirt or hoodie
i dun even own a sleeveless or tank top
my bottoms all skinnys or long-shorts
i dun wear heels or platform
i wear sneakers or slippers
but my last slipper broke
havent buy new one yet LOL
i dun bitch about,
flirting with any guy n every guy i can see
i dun even flirt lo please~
wat for sia? like seriously.
b who u really are, thts the prettiest side of u alrdy
nth beats ur natural self.
i dun waste my dad's money on clothes, acessories, shoes etc.
i spend on food. LOL. sch food is ex.

see? im a really really really goodgirl :DDD
dunno y my family like to say i ah lian - . -
siao. anyhow say. nvr see before real one
im only abit niu pi qi thts all.
im so modest, so goodgirl
i dun see y they act like im a pain in the ass.
they're probably blind.

new year~~
like abit boring sia
nvm tmr will b fun
i gonna see my childhood frens XD
i miss them!!!
1 yr plus nvr see them.
i since i born alrdy noe them
cuz they older than me
but sis oldest. LOL
though they r guys
though they r older
they r different
we dun chat online n stuff
but we embrace when we meet :)
we r like jus platonic frens
they like my kor kor like tht
we always play until siao
even my sis like couch potato
ask her pick up something she drop
oso will die.lol
but when we with them
she will actually become enthusiatic
n like play with us
XD cant wait for tmr

sianzzz. my ang pao money only $320
SO LITTLE!!! LOL
enough for itouch meh?
wth my cousin de grandparents
each give $300
WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF
EVERY YEAR SOMEMORE!!!
like tht their ang pao money 1k liao
KNNNNNNNN
fucking jealousssssssss
they each can buy iphone 4 liao lor
every year can buy 1
WTHHHHHH
I WAN STEAL THEIR MONEY SIA
WTHHHH Y MY RELATIVES SO NIAO!!!
then wth my other relatives in HK
how to go thr bai nian?
then i only got one side de ang pao
then the hk one dun nid get liao
no wonder i got so little money D:<
y cant they migrate to sg with my dad???
omgggg not fair sia T.T

lol kk i shld stay happy :)
lol tdy go mac eat breakfast with dad n sis
then got this...k dun wan say vulgarity
got this girl with a .... face
she go bang my shoulder
when she walk past
i freaking hate it alot
then she nvr say sorry somemore -.-
ppl like her r the cause of slashing incidents
lol i noe i like tht say sounds stupid
but i really really dun like
ppl bang into my shoulders
i dun like ppl hit my shoulders oso
unless play play still nvm
if its not new year
if my dad wasnt thr
ima scold her man. lol.

anw... i dunno y i suddenly think of this but...
i dun see y ppl like to write diaries
yes they keep secrets
but they can sort of 'betray' u so easily
u just turn away for 1 sec
then ppl jiu take n read
so i find tht its absolutely stupid
to write diaries becos
like tht ur secrets r in HUGE danger
of getting exposed to ppl
hahas. RANDOMMM

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happy new year ppl!!!
tdy i go cut hair!!!
now my hair so light :DDD

anw, just 1 sec ago my aunt called me
she say new year liao
wan bring me go 'see' my mom
nahh i dun wan go
she ask y
i say i just dun wan go
the she say new year liao dun wan visit
mei you yong
hahas, is not i dun wan go
is i dun wan to miss her.
like not tht i dun wan her
is like i dun wan to miss someone
tht will nvr come back
i dun wan to cry
i dun wan to hurt
tired of swallowing tears
but still i dun wan to show
im strong de!!! idc!!!
my mom would understand bahh..
haha i wan keep this highness !!!

haha happy new year mommy :)
i love you...

whoa whoa WHOAAAA~!!!!
LOL i kisiao ardy
this afternoon i just saved myself
i dun nid go on stage liao
WHOAAAA~!!!!!
lol but stupid ah
i beg jane tan sia. LOL
i beg her then she say clean artroom
i say 'OK CLEAN ARTROOM!!!'
then she say dun wan
awhile later she say her house havent clean yet
i say ' OK I HELP U CLEAN UR HOUSE!!!'
lol the she say she dun wan
then later again i beg her until
like my life depended on it
then i slowly slowly
like sort of duck walk
to some random ppl's seat
then i just sit n pretend nth happen
theni just in tht second only
not in it liao. LOL
tmr those tht nid'a go
have to reach sch by 7 am
siao eh!!!
7 am i just go in the bus sia
lol y i tdy siao siao one?
tdy i brought cardigan to sch
lol then when i take out liao
then start raining -.-
stupid rain!!! lol

i like dun wan go sch tmr lehh
but i scared later yf go back
lol i think better to b kiasu than sry :P