11th feb'11. friday.
haha yanfeng came tdy for judo again ^^
at first i nvr expect her to come.
then i see her n i ...HAPPII!!!
i no voice to tok liao. haha.
i think i got sorethroat but my throat not pain. lol
funny right? hahah. but its a gd thing.
i wonder if yanfeng going judo on mon :/
i think mon i go sch must guai kia style
skirt must longer.... >< i dun wan siaa!!!!!!!
OMFGGG but for yanfeng I WILL SURVIVE~~~!!!
( happy part bout friday )

dear you,
i think i might have found myself a rival.
u noe wat? im not close to tht person
just a fren of my fren
she didnt tell anyone abt
n this world got so many ppl for her to confess
but who did she choose ------- me.
even my fren was staring at her. lol
i dunno lah. im just.....scared?
hahas ya for once im actually scared...
im scared cuz i dunno wat the future holds
anything can happen in a second
n i oso cant tell myself tht, no...nths gonna happen.
but i dunno...haha im at a lost for words...
last yr wan emo can emo til 3 post
now i like nth much to say uh.
haha maybe i shld just relakkk. take a kit kat
ya but... lol still..abit........................ scared here:X
its like i dun feel save..? LOL im insecure
haha lol i stupid lah. anyhow think...
i cannot think negative lah
cuz i nearly always realise its nth in the end
like i scaring myself only. haha.. :):
( the not-so-good part bout friday )

12th feb' 2011. saturday.
lol tdy is a sian day :DDD
a bit lucky only i think
i suppose to have chinese tuition
WHY SIA?? mii chinese got a1. LOL
ok i noe im being bhb noww..
but seriously, WHYYY???
my aunt say get 80 over then dun nid
fine lah, i scored 84. now she still wan me go
stew piddddddd
father ask me wash fluffy's cage
so i wash slowly cuz just woke up
i gong gong. alot of time i stop washing n stone~
then abt 5 min plus then i realise i stoning
end up i do so slow tht no time for tuition, LOL
n btw i got fever LEYY just nice 37.6 degrees. HAHAHHA
funny sia. then my dad stop asking me to rush abt.
gd lah dun nid waste time thr.


hmmm.... i paranoiding. LOL
i dunno y i really lost for words man
nowadays when im feeling down
i cannot find a way to describe it
its thr, inside,
all i do is hide.
i wish tht it would just go away..

haha i think i shld blog more on myself..
im noisy. yes. im loud. yes.
im full of confidence. no.
im noisy n im loud cuz inside is just someone diff
im loud most of the time
cuz i wan to block all the whisperings of my fears
everytime i keep quiet or settle down
im always reminded of my fears
they just keep whispering
i dun show wat i really am
i mean. SERIOUSLY.
i look confident,
i act like im in a constant supply of confidence
thts cuz im trying to b confident
but im not. i really m not.
i just wan to b different from wat i used to b in pri
i dun wan to b a pushover
i dun wan to b ppl's dog n get bullied
i wan to b the boss of myself
I DUN EVER wan ppl to bully me every again
im....phobic...i guess. haha
but things r pretty fine now in sch
dun really have ppl bullying me
tease...ya sometimes. its ok as long as its not nasty
but dude im a human
it does hurt sometimes
but i dun care lah.
i wan to b care free as possible.
haha.