im so bored.
exams r here :/
sianz.

moodswing. damn.
just now oso.
just nice before exams.
wasted 15 mins thinking abt during exam.
>< arghhhh...

it's damaging to the self esteem
to noe tht u're not n nvr will b good enough for something :S
n tht nth can change it.
lol. something u wan so much.
like a drug addiction
but harder to kick off
hahas..

the only thing tht keeps me wishing on a wishing star

my sis taught me something,
wats mine will b mine,
wats not mine, no matter how hard i hold on to it,
it will eventually go or leave me...

T.T fml.....
i feel like im being robbed of my assets.
just 10 mins ago i was so rich for once.
i had all the ang pau money tht my relatives give me for my birthday present
plus all the money i save for 1 month
tht is abt 210++
then now my father wan me bank in 9/10 of the money.
cbbbb T.T
heart pain sia... teared abit just now.
arghhh i wan bang wall man.
i need a doctor, i need doctor, i need a doctor doctor...
to bring me back to life~

my feet injured.
toe swollen now.
tdy still kick until.
pain until wan scold tht person oso cannot.

anw. alot thing happen to jana.
feel sad for her.
im gonna b thr for her.
even if i at grandma house
i oso will take mrt or cab down if she needs me.
i dun like to see the ppl i love feel sad or hurt.
i dun like to see them so broken, so torn, so... dunno how to say.
when i see ppl happy, i will feel happy.
i like to make my frens laugh n say ' wth..' at the stupid stupid things i do.
lol.

bought colour contacts. brown colour.
waiting for my grey ones to come.
i tried wearing blue ones before last time.
ugly. not nice. looks scary.
make ur eyes look smaller.
actually the lighter or brighter colour it is,
the smaller ur eyes will look.
thinking of buying eye enlarging lens.
but the colour very dark n cost more money.
my grey ones are geo lens. oso make ur eyes bigger. haha.
15 mm wide sia. lol.
they say until like very big like tht.
lol abit bigger only lah.

lol y m i toking contact lens?
very sian now. tdy 2 period of maths. can die
damn boring. i sit until for the first time, totally cannot pay attention.
tcher say wat i ting bu jing.

watever lah.
tdy random one.
nth to say.

its my birthday tdy. lol
im 14 le. haha
tdy i feel damn sleepy in sch
go sch 1st lesson havent start alrdy wan sleep n no energy like tht.
then after recess finally cannot take it liao then sleep.
it rained somemore. nvr fall asleep is fake one.
slept all the way in sch. dnt oso can sleep.
then now still sleepy sleepy one.

ytd was a long long day.
i fucking lost. very bu gan yuan.
im gonna win for the nxt competition.
trained tani tdy during judo.
i ask mabel to keep enter one arm.
first few time tani, i too slow.
then one time i was fast enough, the timing just nice.
she freaking fly in the air.
i feel like i didnt even use any strength.
but when she fall, her leg fall on top of my kneecap.
now i think i injured her ><
cuz her kneecap injured before then like jelly like tht, can move.
then it moved when she hit my knee cap n pull until the nerve i think.
it looks damn pain for her.
she lie on the floor for very long.
i dun dare n dun wan train tani with her liao :/
later injured her again.

but im gonna train back to my old standard.
im gonna atleast get bronze for the nxt competition.
im gonna show everyone tht i can do it.
im gonna make coach, mr yeo all this ppl proud of me.
im gonna shock everybody. im not gonna let anyone tell me tht i win cuz tyco.

omg. kyu grade is tmr.
im scared. im nervous ><
damn damn damn scared!!!
omfg im in 4th-3rd kyu.
can die liao lahhhh.
later nid fight with lyneth cfm + chop lose.
y did i even go for grading man?
backside itchy then go grading de lor me.
scared... >< !

i noe who is tht.
i noe wat u're toking bout
i noe everything.
the ironic thing is,
im always able to find out this kind of stuff unintentionally.
i noe abt wayyyyyy earlier than everyone
sort of everyone.
not counting those tht u told earlier.
i noe shes beautiful. she is lah.
shes cute, petite, femine..awesome lah ok.
n every opposite of me. i dun ppl to tell me 'no lah no lah. ' abt the those 4 qualities.
cuz i noe it myself since small. no joke.
lol she dunno tht i even exist but i noe her name n her face.
but this is difficult man. its hard. its killing me, it kills me.
but i noe its nvr simple nvr easy, nvr a cleanbreak n no could save me.
lol wtf m i toking bout. im being a drama queen.
but i fucking fucking really feel like i kena scalded by hot water
whenever this stuff gets into my head.
the raw edges of my wounds hurt. burnnn.
but watever. im nothing. im just a fucking little girl.
im just a plain jane. easily forgotten.
im boring. im a nerd. my atitude sux like everyone says.
im a bitch. im a fuck.
watever lah.

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