this still sux,
i woke up in a bad mood tdy.
it sux lah seriously
i feel like shit
this year really sux..

somethings on my mind.
dunno how to say it out..

it hurts..
wanna tell myself
dude, stop hurting, forget about it seriously.
but its still thr. its still bugging me.
lol. wat to do?
oso cant to do anything.
i just want it back the way it was.

last night i couldnt even sleep properly
my dreams were all messed up
like they all no link
i cant even rmb now
but i noe its like the pictures keep shuffling
arghhh this sux..
havent been having any emotions this few days
now suddenly blast me with this

sometimes i dun understand the world
i dun understand how it works
it can give u all sorts of bizarre stuff
i noe its long over but still,
knowing its ever thr still sux

idk how to say uhhhh
no one understands this feeling
this just sux big time
how did i get here man.
this sux i dun even noe how to express myself
wat to do?
cry under a table
why?
cuz im useless

i dunno lahh seriously
i dun see light in the future

家不像家

my home feels like an empty shell
i go home oso no one at home
i dun even feel like going home
but no choice.
i have no whr to go
jana not in sg.
outside oso no one :/
wahhh this feeling sux ttm.
home like empty shell
wats worst is i dun have freedom
everyday wan me go back to tht shell so early
for wat? got use meh?

stupid sia tdy suddenly got counseller come look for me ._.
ppl say is peterson wan me go counselling...
for wat sia... i oso dun have any prob
say wat if got thing can tok to her
but i no thing to tok bout
seriously..
she say if i wan can go back someday.
I'LL NEVER GO BACK THR.

Labels: siao

hmmm.. i still dunno wat to buy
2 ppl birthday coming somemore
omgg. stress.
i nid to start fasting from tmr til fri
budget like tight this year
all cos i start saving late. grrr..
i will survive!
one week only!
ganbatte!!

thrs interclass sports tdy
played so many games.
during modular i played tchouk ball
fun :D
then after sch i have netball
again 2a1
then no one came
so they combine with 2a2
farhana n kerisheena.
then got magdalene all this..etc

during the game 2e3 winning le.
then cuz its raining
the netball very slippery
then i catch but slipped out
i chased after the ball
then abt to bounce out
i put one knee on the floor n like stretch
to try to save the ball
i was so close so i drag my knee
which was still in contact with the floor
i saved the ball
then we won 5:0 :D
my palm kena cut
at first is only internal injury,
now the injury split then become cut ><
pain... of my whole body,
i hate it when my hands injured
my palm somemore.

haiz.. i miss jana.
shes not coming back to bps le
if she go other sch cfm will find new set of frens
cuz impossible she alone in sch
:( now like no one slack around, pei me all this
all the ppl in sch after sch straight go home -.-
no one pei me.
all not steady one.
lousyyy.. like no one got same interest as me
sian.. i like lonely only lor.
:( feels like no ones gonna be thr but me
for once i feel so like odd one out in sch
like all got fren but me
not say no fren, they like.. character not same as me
sometimes i feel like i dun fit in to anywhr anymore
like i dun belong anywhere.
:/ will i be able to fit in?
this sch like no girls like me like me like tht,
it ways its swag, but sad oso :(
haiz..